Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Taking it Easy

So I've had at least a month and a half of really solid training, nothing hurts and I've increased my weekly mileage to a respectable level again. That must mean it is time for another race!! This weekend I'm heading to North Carolina for The Scream Half Marathon. Why is it called the Scream you ask? Just look at the elevation profile, my quads will be screaming.
Its a point to point course starting and ending in the middle of nowhere, so no spectators! I honestly have no idea how I'll feel running almost constantly downhill as I have no experience of it. I'm sure those little blips of uphills will be killer after running down for so long. I'm determined to go and have fun and appreciate the fact that I'm not running upwards for once....there maybe some Phoebe (from Friends) style running going on!

Monday, 14 July 2014

Big Dreams!

I'm currently 30, almost 31! To me as a child/teenager that seemed ancient and everyone I knew that was that age seemed to have it so together.
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However, I have realised over the last few years that very little changes. You are still the same person, granted you might mature a little over the years and have a few extra grey hairs, but fundamentally whats different?
My eight years in education were a privilege, don't get me wrong, but my career path kind of stunts your development in some respects even while broadening your outlook and knowledge of life. I've seen friends leave university after their undergraduate degree. They run companies, have the car, the marriage and the children. I'm still struggling** away on a tiny postdoc salary while they seem to have it made.

I am jealous to a degree of these other people, but on the other hand I'm glad I've been forced to wait, because I've seen some of them do very stupid things to attain that perfect picture. Marry partners that they knew from the beginning weren't right for them...just because they wanted the big day! Taken out massive loans, I mean ridiculous loans, for said big day, new car and huge house.

Right now I'm at the stage where I would love some stability in my life. I've moved constantly for the last 10 years, within my own country and now here to the US. I would give anything for my own little fixer upper house to work on, somewhere to call a permanent home. Lastly I'm at the age where time is running low for me to have a child. Some days I drive myself crazy with these thoughts and others I think life now is amazing and a house and kid would tie me to somewhere I might be miserable in the long run.

I think the key is to not leap in head first!! The advantage of my education and experience, especially the area I'm in, is that I should always have a job (fingers crossed), even if its poorly paid, and when the time is right to begin seriously thinking about houses etc  I'll know. For right I'll keep driving my crappy car, planning and saving so I don't cripple myself with debt to do it, but who said it would be easy?

Keep Dreaming



**Struggling is a relative term but at the end of the day running/traveling to races is really my only non life essential (i.e. rent, bills, food, gas) spending 99% of the time. Even then its- is it on sale, do I really need it, do I have a coupon etc, etc, etc.